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This is very good and verbose: Self Help for Depressions
You have been traveling on a path that is not
exactly that one which you have chosen to follow for this lifetime. Instead,
you feel like constantly drifting off what what you originally wanted;
and your present life, what you are doing in reality, differs so much from
your real wishes and expectations of what you want to achive in this lifetime,
that you find yourself disabled and lost.