my spiritual journey began, I had no fore warning my life was
to change forever. Nothing nudged me or warned me. I had, at that
no understanding just how BIG it all would become. Nor did I know
I, myself, would never be the same again.
It was a winter day. Much like any other winter day in the south of
The sun shining and kinda cool. My everday life had piled itself
high I could not see my way out of it. I was mad, disgusted, and
just wanted to give it up all together. But, I had read, in a book.
could help us, heal us if we would but give them a chance. So,
"what the hell it is worth a shot, I have nothing to lose"
I took a pale lavender amethyst, and put all my woes into it. I cried
it. Let all the pressures go into it. Then with friends I went to
stream. I remember the moon was full that night and we gazed upon
The stream was singing, neverending songs of the night time. No
sounds disturbed the peaceful scenery.
did our own private ceremony.
For mine, I prayed into the stone and thanked it for helping me. I asked
if there was something BIGGER than me. Something like the "God"
talked of in church, and if that something could hear my prayers,
please give me a sign. So that I may know the truth.
the pale amethyst and buried it under a tree. Was a tall and stately
He had been there beside that murmering brook for many a moon. So I
he was very wise and strong. That he would lend his essence to the
I had performed.
came and went. Nothing happened. I felt lost and forgotten. I
the world was a lie. There was no God! It was all a story they make
little children to get them to follow THEIR rules!
urge came over me. I asked one of the friends who had been with me
night to go back to the stream with me.
up to the tree I had buried the stone under. There was someting
on under the tree. At first I could not beleive my eyes. We got out of
and went to see what was happening under MY tree. As there was a
got nearer to the tree, I saw the most amazing site.
my eyes to see if I was dreaming. This could not be!
looked again. Yes, it was so. Under my tree was a spiral of little
butterflies. They were flying round and round, ever higher ever faster.
started at the base of the tree and went all the way to the top.
feet of butterflies. I could not beleive it. And, best of all. They
pale lavender. The very same color as the stone I buried.
goose bumps. My stomach began to roll. Then, I realised. This was the
I had been waiting for! There it was, plain as the nose upon my face!
was a God!
of all. He had heard my prayers. And answered them. I cried for a
then, and so did my friend. He knew what I had buried, and why.
a miracle! Happening right before our very eyes!
right up to my gift. To the very edge of all the wonderful
Still spiraling, still going higher. I looked up to the
ones. They were glowing in the light of the sun. Flying ever higher.
looked down to the bottom of the spiral.
horrified at what i saw.
this happen I demanded to know! Was nothing ever beautiful? Did it
have to be spoiled by DEATH?
the bottom of the spiral was all the wounded and dying butterflies.
were already dead, and some were struggling pittifully to get back up
again. It was so sad. I could not help them. They were just
and dying and there was nothing i could do about it.
so sad and hurt and a bit angry that i just started crying all over
My present ruined by DEATH, was all I could think.
home in a strange mood. I was both elated i had discovered something.
I was not quite sure WHAT I had discovered. I knew it was something
i asked my tarot cards why butterflies?
looked at my tree spirit that was on my desk. It was a miniature
of a little tree. It had been a gift given long ago and i treasured
had always tried to decorate the tree, but never did anything fit on
looked again at the tree, and at the very top was a little butterfly
I had put on it one day and forgotten about it. One little butterfly on
goose bumps then. Sat thinking for a very long time.
my prayer had been answered. Although I did not understand what
being shown to me, I knew I had made a connection.
there was a God, or a Spirit , that could hear and answer our
I knew I had discovered a secret, and that the secret concerned a
butterflies, and the color lavender.
later I learned of the asscension. Of the soul's spiral dance into the
I learned of the tree of life, and how the tree symbolizes us and
upon this earth we call mother. I learned a butterfly was the
for the soul. I learned that light lavender is the color of our crown
all, I came to know that in life there is always death. The dying
gave up their life nobelly so the others might go higher into
All living is in a way a death. To begin life anew is to give
old. To let things die willingly and to not hang onto them when it
for it to go.